Heaven/Hell

I'm standing in the dark,
two doors before me,
both with your face in them.
I know I have to open one of them.
I have to.
But I just can't.
I don't want to face the other side,
don't wanna fly to heaven,
don't wanna fall to hell.
So I'm here,
trapped,
frozen,
scared.
I want a third door.
Become another person.
Be somebody else.
Leave this body, this life.
Everything matters too much,
to the point where I don't care anymore.
So I lie.
You can hang me up, sentence me to death,
I don't care.
I just wanna throw my heart away,
stop feeling, stop caring.


I just wanna set the damn doors on fire.