Doorknob to the other side

Is this how poison feels? I don't understand why does everyone get to move forward but me. Am I the one who's doing it all wrong? I know I don't have any idea what is going on. But the world brought news of you again, and guess what? I haven't healed yet, what a surprise! Will I ever get past this? Another big stone to carry on my stupid backpack.

"Look, you guys, I'm really grateful that you still believe in me. Problem is, I don't."