April ended

I'm sorry. I just had to do this and I couldn't.

So I feel like a disappointment, getting used to it. 

Quarantine is being... I don't really have words. 

I'm just trying to repress my feelings all the time. And it's working.

I know it's probably for the worse, but I'm just trying not to be miserable now.

And yet I don't seem to be able to get a one good day, today I was really close but it didn't end well.

I'm trying to be strong, to not think about it, to drown myself.

Life just keeps getting messier. I don't think I'm built to face it. 

I'm just too weak for everything. 

I wish I could just go away. 

I'm really sorry. 

This is the most I can write, I can't even face my diary. I can't even face myself. 

It sucks. 

I'm sorry. 

Good night.