IHNTKM

My head hurts. I just went outside looking crazy with my mind blurred. The cold felt good, the people and the lights didn't. It's getting harder again. I always say the same shit, I know, sorry.  I just wish I wasn't like this. If only I could be another person, in another place, with another mind.nI just keep evading writing it here, directly. But why? You would worry, well, that's for sure and it's normal, but it's been like this for more than eight years, you shouldn't worry more. And I'm taking care of myself, I'm seeing people, I have the situation almost under control.