Limbo

Things aren't bad. There are also not good. It feels like I'm just here being, and that's all. It has worked for the past two months, but I'm getting tired of all this activity, all this distraction. I need it, but it takes a lot of energy from me. But what can I do? I just try to keep on until the headaches kick on and then try to sleep through it, but it takes me hours. I was talking about that the other day with my mom, that I can't go to bed and fall asleep immediately, it usually takes two or three hours. She sais is my fault, she's probably right, it has been like this since I can remember. When I was in high school I used to sleep four hours a night and then collapse every other weekend and on Saturdays, I would sleep ten hours, until my mom got mad and pulled me out of bed to eat something. So my family always thought I was sleepy.

I just lost track of what I was thinking and what I was going to write. So I'm leaving it here.