Weird feelings

I know what I feel isn't normal. I know it because people have told me it's not like that for them. I know it because of the way they react when I speak about these things. I know it because talking about some of these feelings feels too risky, too weird, too messed up.
I don't know.
Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm even real. If what I feel is really what I feel. Sometimes I feel like there are little beings inside of me trying to fool me. Sometimes I feel like I am the one trying to fool myself. I get really paranoid about all of these when I think about it.